..They say I walk around like I gotta a S on my chest.....aaahhhh, the wonderful lyrics of hip hop artist 50 Cent. This is precisely how I woke up feeling today. I originally intended to post another blog I had begun earlier in the week, but the quote attached in addition to my musical inspiration changed my mind. Hey, it's my blog, I do what I want.
So what do Hip Hop and a mere quote have to do with the other? Well, in case you didn't know, I think I'm a superhero. No, not the kind that dresses in skin-tight, colorful spandex donning a cape with the power to lift buildings and such. One could only wish! I'm talking about a regular person that doesn't allow life to get the best of her, she takes the good with the bad, rolls with the punches and attempts to help and love as many along the way. The kind of superheroes that we meet everyday and don't realize it. If you ponder the thought for a minute I am sure you too will find that you know a superhero or two; hey, you know me and that's a start.
My most prized, out-of-this-world power is my ability to love. Yep...I'm back on that. You will find that every good thing I do and have done is out of love. Whether it is letting someone get ahead of me in traffic, opening the door for a complete stranger, saying good morning, giving my spare change to those in need, giving advice or even loving someone in spite of it all - I do it all for love.
What can I say, I love love. The very thought of it makes me warm and fuzzy, and fills me with such joy and I'm not afraid to say it. I know...I know. Nauseating isn't it. Good thing I have reached a dangerously awesome new level of freedom and don't care what others think. If I did then I wouldn't write what I want and publish it for the world to see it.
So what is wrong with loving hard you ask? Nothing. Some may disagree but that is for them to contemplate and analyze - not me - I will just wish them well.
I. Will. Not. Apologize. For. Loving. Hard.
Why would I be sorry for loving hard? Loving hard is a gift and worth it all. Plain and simple. I find that when one loves hard, it is a love that remains, and eventually boomerangs its way back no matter how off-course it has gotten. Some may say otherwise, but you will learn that I am an advocate of all things positive. Therefore, I simply feel that when love persists like that, it is for one reason only - because it is real. It simply gets buried under a pile of hurt, fear, doubt and sometimes anger and some people are not sure how to remove those layers to get back that love and simply find it easier to move on.
The cool thing about loving hard is that it allows you to have the resilience and endurance to push past all that contradicts love and hang in there. Crazy isn't it? Not really. It's love.
I wasn't always pro love. I was always kind and did things with the best intentions but I was jaded. However, the past few years I can honestly say that I have allowed myself to love hard and intentionally. And it has it been quite the adventure! I love even when I don't necessarily see or feel the love and I'm okay with that.
If you aren't so privy to know my kind of love, don't worry, simply dig deep within yourself and you may find that love has always has been with you. It's quite moving. That love within allows you to not only love yourself, but also allows you to love those the most when they are least deserving.
Is this superpower easy to recognize or come by? Of course it is. Okay, so now you probably think I'm delusional or high on some sort of illicit drug, but that is not the case. I am nonetheless writing on no caffeine so that could be a contributing factor.
This love is easy to come by when you work for it. I've been working towards this my whole life and it only took me 30 years to find it. Yes, I am showing my age. I will be honest, I was resistant at first. In addition to resistance, I also had the help of cynicism and negativity to help complicate my love further. BUT, just when I thought I was down, something and someone crossed my path and changed my direction - and I've never been the same. This allowed me to find the love inside of me and see all that I am and all that I have and gave me the confidence to take the plunge and love hard. And I'm a firm believer that it happened just in the nick of time.
So, if you love hard, don't apologize for your gift. Ever. Flaunt the S or better yet, the L on your chest with pride. There will be those that don't know how to accept it because they are innately programmed to be afraid of the unknown. Continue to give your gift to them because it is in the giving that you make the other person realize.
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